emo emo.

Heh. dunno wat's wrong with me nowadays. certain times of the day i just feel kinda emo. i need to learn how to control my emotions better. But i haven't been sleeping well in camp. Not sure what's the reason either. So i tend to get a lil cranky.. How i wish i could have one of those happy go lucky personalities.

Alfred's rock has been taken off his head.
HAHA.
jokes.

Had a talk with Chun Hao today in church. He assured me that once i completed BMT they won't send me in for re-course. That's good.

Sunday school. We learned about the power that God has invested in us to enable us to overcome the evil in this world, the temptations that we face daily. It's a comforting fact. Yet, somehow for me, I can't help feeling inadequate still. No doubt, God's plans are greater than mine, but my patience is limited. Afterall, i don't see the begining and the end like God does. I only see wat's in the present and occasionally look back upon the past. No doubt i'm still waiting upon his promises and will continue to wait, i can't help but nurse this feeling of being neglected, that my needs aren't met. Granted, perhaps what I want isn't what God has in store for me, what am i sposed to do? Afterall, i was created with this feeling, this desire for companionship wasn't I?

ah wth, pizza's ready. Time to answer my other calling, to food.

The end of module exam went pretty well for most if not all.
Just that i realise the guy who's gonna interview us for the position of pseudo pilot is the same guy who scolded my course mate and I for spouting uneccessary comments during one of the dialouge sessions.. that increases my chaces by a hell lot.

Nonetheless the people i've met there are the best weirdos anyone can ask for. And thanks to them, we're having so much fun!

Alfred! Sheesh. How often can we find someone who laughs along with everyone else even when the subject of the humour is no other but he himself. Really need more people like him around town. "rock on the head.." HAHAHA. Seriously, i think abs trainers should hire him :)


There's so much uncertainty in the air. Which unit I go after passing out, which uni I go after ORD.. the future is indeed a mystery.

Interesting time to be blogging..
Sleepovers at Ann Siong's.

They all succumbed to the Z monster as Mr Foo would say.

No prob waking Huay Shan up though, just mention some random food..
The rest will wake at "got bomb". Some random crap that Cheng Wei came up with.

I dunno wat to say. Feels weird blogging at this hour. Dun wanna be emo.. o.O




I'm hungry.

Thanks guys! :)

For the Big Big photo collage!
For the dinner at din tai fung!
For the T shirt!
For all the well wishes!
For the friendship that we've shared!

Haven't gotten my hands on the photos yet. Hope you guys do well over there at Wales! Thanks for the smses too!


Mum and Dad got me this digital photo display screen. Just what I needed man! now i won't get bored of looking at the same photos everyday.



Things have really picked up in Air Force School. Studies are getting intensive but my friends there are really great. :) I thought they were gonna tao-pok me or something the way they were going about it but all they wanted to do was to surprise me with a cake at midnight! They actually stayed up all the way whereas i fell asleep.. haha.

Funniest thing. They dared me to call SSG stephanie and SSG Alvin. It was hilarious man. If only i could have faked a cry to make it even more realistic. I was sposed to call them and request them to sing me a birthday song over the phone "because all my course mates abandoned me" SSG Alvin was like "huh really ah? eh heh heh, heh heh heh heh heh, dun wan la, very funny lei.." and in the end after much pleas on my part he finally relent and actually sang!! omg.. we were all laughing cos the phone was on loud speaker. Sorry staff! haha! It was meant to be a dare on me, but i guess it turned out more like a prank on you :p SSG stephanie was faking reception problems and just refused to sing! chey!

My wing (unit) seems like a really nice place. Get to play pool and video arcade every night, eat chicken wings, fries, chicken cutlet (famous) until we all grow fat..

Guess i'm really blessed!
Thank You God.

Irresponsible.
Indecisiveness.
Chain reactions.

of a friend which made me sad.

***

Ah, screw it. And so the road less travelled proved too difficult afterall. In conformity i see comfort. Yet therein lies a disatisfaction that i know i won't be able to live with for long. And so, i press on, clinging on to an unfounded hope, without which i am nothing.

In English. I don't like the work culture in Singapore. It sucks. Really.

Perhaps it's my fault i don't have many friends my age, save for a few good ones :) And because of that, few can truly relate. What's the point of having the nicest car in the world with no one to drive, the best squash racquet with no partner. I try, but it takes two hands to clap, Thank you dear ones who've clapped along.

No matter how much i condemn the paper chase though, i know almost for sure that one day, so too, will i be running that race, climbing that ladder.

I suppose it's all part and parcel of growing up.

There must be more than this

Oh breath of God, we wait on you

There must be more than this.....

***

No wonder. This isn't heaven. The world requires that we work. I'd like heaven. That's where time is used usefully. Time is used to worship and fellowship.

***

And so I pushed the gear into forward. Slowly we inched ahead into the darkness. As we covered ground little by little, so we saw the portion of track that we conqured. Looking ahead, hardly anything was visible, we relied on our momentum to keep us going. Looking back, we understood. Yet, nothing could really prepare us for what was to come.