I finally emailed my application for nparks volunteer work. Isn't it ironic that when time is such a rare commodity, we desire it so much. Yet when we are given too much of it, we find things to do to spend it away? Uncle Jammy was funny, for a moment i thought he could read my mind when he said "so now you wake up in the morning feeling depressed with nothing to do issit?" Then he told me he went through it once before. Haha. This can't be happening. I'm supposed to be enjoying post As am i not? Then why is this happening?? ahhh... really hope nparks get back to me soon. Or maybe i should find a real job.. this morning, picked up the papers, and it just so happened to be the recruitment section. hmmm. Life is getting really boring and purposeless.. can't believe i was living to study last year.. i think no one who hasn't gone through this would understand the feeling. heh. There must be more than this.. i wanna pursue my passions! Then again.. what are my passions.. what won't require strain on my right wrist? stupid rollerblading. darn slope. they ought to have a warning sign there. crap. feel like a loser who can't rollerblade.

I wanna get back in shape man.. time to start training for NS. I think i can only climb as far as coporal. And that's pathetic.. ah well. At least i won't have to go for extra long reservist.. have more time to spend with my family.. if i ever get to start one in the first place..

I need something to keep me occupied.. something that i enjoy doing. hmm.


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