I'm sooo tired today.

Things in camp seem to be falling into place.. but things outside seem to be falling apart. And i'd give anything for them not to.

I miss my friends..
Busy busy. Swallowed up by the world, they are. I wish I could do something for them. All I can do now is pray and be there for them when they need me..
The thing is.. do they?

I feel kinda odd.. dispensable.




I thought we understood each other.. I thought we clicked. It was convenience.
And they said brothers stay brothers for life.. eutopia.

Work's really much much better. But i'd still rather sleep in.. heh heh.
I don't understand what's happening!! I haven't changed that much have I? I still treasure our friendship as I
If I stayed in Singapre, i'd study psychology in NUS. I'd learn up my japanese. I'd learn driving, i'd learn tennis.. i'd learn kayaking, i'd learn how to cook.. i'd join campus crusade..
And then at 26 i'd apply to be a pilot with SIA. Sounds good.
always have. But recently it's been horrible. Everything i say seems to piss you off. I'm scared to talk to you.
If i went to Auzzie, i'd be a vet. I wonder if i'll have time to learn other things.

I need advice. haha.
I'd change if u tell me what to change. Until then, i wish u all the best, brother.
I need to talk to vets and pilots.. help?

Today was agood day :)
Finally i think i made some friends :)

Looks like life is gonna get much better afterall. :):)

The weekend was great.

Half day on friday, went to meet the Prof from UQ who didn't showup.. hahaha. But no matter.
Brought cookie to the vet, she was soooo noisy!! Met up with the guys from 84th at singpost for dinner and chill.. ended up doing push-ups as forfeit out side macdonalds..

Sat, rested at home the whole morning, met Eugene for lunch at parkway, then went to esplanade for dinner with family. Watched a free dance festival performance at the concourse while waiting. Walked from esplanade to fullerton across the singapore river. They misted up the whole walkway under the bridge such that i was so scared i'd bump into someone.. couldn't see 20cm in front of me. hehe. Quite an exciting feeling. :D

Sunday, oh my goodness.. sunday, God spoke to me like i was the only person in the sermon. All the verses i've been reading surfaced again. I just wanna trust God to know what he wants to do with me in army. Indescribable feeling. Went out for lunch with a few of the youth. After that Dot came over to watch 10 promises to my dog. And she cried!! hahahahha. :p And we didn't even eat the popcorn during the show. heh.

Nice nice weekend :)

Just brought cookie to the vet, they did an x-ray and found her heart to be enlarged to 13cm, from the norm of bout 9-11cm, due to heart murmur which essentially means a failure of the valves to ensure unidirectional flow of blood. This means her heart has to pump faster and harder in order to get the required cirrculation underway. They also found water in her lungs..

I have to give cookie her medication by means of a syringe every morning and evening.. I wonder how she'll take it. I'm not even sure i know how to do it right.

I told the vet i'd like to volunteer at her clinic since i was interested in doing vet science. She replied "you ready to sign your life away ah? No social life at all lei"

Wow.. shucks.. is it that bad? Guess i'll never get married.. haha. Unless of course.. we set up a clinic together. o.O


Met up with chipmunk, kangarooB and Fredsama after that at singpost and we were doing push-ups outside the first floor landing as forfeit. chipmunk had to do alot, so we had a good laugh after finishing our share quickly! Thankfully it was at night, so it was less embarrassing.

I was almost an unhappy person today
But God is great. He cancelled my test at AFS today, but i still got the half day off!!! :)
Tyrone was actaully fighting to let me go! I'm so awed. Haha.

I was sitting at the bus stop reading romans.. and God led me to this:

Romans 9:25--
For he says to Moses, "I will have mercy on whom i have mercy, and i will have compassion on whom i have compassion." So it depends not upon man's exertion, but upon God's mercy. For the scripture says to pharoh, " I have raised you up for the purpose of showing my power in you, so that my name may be proclaimed in all the earth." So then he has mercy upon whom ever he wills, and he hardens the heart of whoever he wills.

You will say to me then, "why does he still find fault? For who can resist his will?" But who are you, a man, to answer back to God? Will what is moulded say to it's moulder. "Why have you made me thus?" Has the portter no right over the clay, to make out of the same lump one vessel for beauty and another for menial use?


We must decrease so that Christ can increase. God's really putting me through all this so that his name may be glorified even as I put my trust in Him day after day.


We know that in everything, God works for the good of those who trust him, who are called according to his will.

If God is for us, who can be against us.

In all these things, we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither deah, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in christ Jesus our Lord.

I need you Jesus,
To come to my rescue,
Where else could i go

There's no other name,
by which i am saved
capture me with grace,
I will follow you.


He said come unto me, all who are weary, and i will give you rest.

I'm kinda feeling odd todae.
Happy and stressed at the same time.

Tmr I getting a half day off, after taking some exam outside base, Thank God!!! :)
The power of prayer. Thanks YAYAs!

Seems like a lot of people are going through rough patches huh.

Everyone needs compassion
The kindness of a saviour
Let mercy fall on me

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

Saviour, he can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to Save
He is Mighty to Save
Forever, author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave



Suddenly every line of the song jumps out at me :)

Hear my prayer O Lord
And let my crying come unto thee.

If this goes on for long..

I dunno how much more i can take.

Lord God i trust you know what you are doing with me. I really don't know anymore. I surrender to your will. I'm helpless. I have nothing, except faith that You will bring me through.

I have an affinity for dead brids.

I feel happy! I tutored my driver friend for his upcoming O levels. And i helped my mdm look through her grandson's english essay! Finally something more intellectually stimulating. And they look up to me and respect me for being able to do it well. Maybe that's why i'm so happy about it. :)

Friday

AFS buddies! Who else understands better than them what i'm going through at work. Dinner at vivo market was fun, full of laughter (thanks to alfred as usual) albeit short. He saw the sign that said use other door and he walked off in search of another door when it really meant use the right side door out of the two glass doors that made the entrance. Joey fell onto the floor literally ROTFL-ing. Weile drove, so we got into the car.. all except Alvin and HL. And we drove off without them in the carpark. They started walking after the car but duh, how were they sposed to keep up. But we were nice and turned back for them after a while. :p

I was just complaining to Xuan about work when she saw this. After almost.. well, embarassing herself at orchard. I promised not to add in details, less she kicks me down the stairs. But it's so appropriate. The message is so clear and so specific to me!! I'd have stopped to stare and wonder if anyone else could see what i saw.

Saturday

Someone was too shy to be in the photos.. so.. let's admire nature's beauty instead huh?

There's just something reassuring about a small shiny green light that says, it's safe to proceed.

Artistic isn't it?? Like a pastel colour!

I never expected to go home dripping.. Thanks ah? The poor taxi driver. Heh. But it was a fun afternoon at the beach! We probably worked off all that subway pretty effectively! I just hope mum doens't mind sand in the laundry. :p

Urm.. just some random encouragement to all out there who're taking exams. gambatte means 'be strong' in japanese. :)

Today was another good day.

Started the week feeling blue and tired. But It's amazing what God can do. :) When u choose to love. Others see the difference in you. Really.

No matter how much crap others throw at you, 'pray for thy oppressors', 'love thy enemies'. And it works! Now at least i've made friends with a few people. And they've begun to realise that I'm not that screwed up afterall :) I actually did well during one of the training sessions and my supervisor praised me! Things are changing around here all right. :)

My senior dropped me off at marine parade after work. The thing I love about that area, I can always count on bumping into someone I know! :) Seriously!

Chilling out at Novena after church

Xuan insisted that her shades made people look good..

The long-awaited donuts that eugene promised.

Oink Oink

A good weekend. I can't wait for the next. I live for the weekends.

Should I join chorale??? They're going Korea, that's 7 days of unrecorded leave from army in January 2009, cos we'll be representing Singapore to compete!! That's like the ultimate incentive for me!! Saturdays, 3-6pm. How How How??? Should I??

VJC Open house!
Met up with a few of the 06s33 peeps, to crash open house '08

Mr Eric Foo!

My fav tutor, even though i ponned his bio tutorial. once.

Mass Dance!! Wat's VJ without it.
The good old rusty swing that hardly anyone uses but remains a vital part of the VJ campus
Chilling out at the Igloo..
Canteen food. Milo with pearls. It used to be my staple.

Visited Boon Sing at ttsh after that. Poor guy had an accident in the line of duty. Really hope he recovers fully from this and that life for him will return back to normal!! Now I really believe that life is really short, and anything can happen at anytime, to anyone. :(

Then it was off to Varsity Park for YAYAs BBQ. There was as usual, so much food, we played games to finish up the food. Photos from mel soon.

Meanwhile, i'm sooooooo tired, i'm going to sleep. Gd nite world.

Ohoh! Thanks Jialing and co. for that lilo and stich cup, and frog wrist pad all the way from wales!! :) :)

Today was a good day.
Left work at 10am for meeting, after that followed one of my seniors to marine parade. I bumped into a few VJ people! :) :)

Went for inter squadron bowling after that. We won! although I don't think I contributed much, but finally I saw some team excellence come into play!

Thank you Lord, looks like at least for now, there shines a more prominent silver lining.

My attempt at drawing urm.. cloud..

Haha. The eyes are soooo hard to draw!

Xuan's nose.